I received a text from Kali yesterday. Not the normal text filled with silly and light. It was filled with anxiousness and the firm feelings of "change"- A change-is-a-coming kids. Graduation. Careers. Jobs. Schedules. Dreams. Fear.
It's really all about CHANGE.
The one thing I've learned in parenthood is, things start to happen with reason. Meaning, some way and some how you just learn to step back.
The moments when they're learning to walk, and you're watching and praising, and yet so excited as they take step by step.
The moments when they're making decisions in elementary, middle and high school. Rolling their eyes so deep back into their head because THEY THINK THEY KNOW EVERYTHING IN THAT MOMENT... as we roll our eyes way back into OUR heads.
And so the shift is happening. An almost 22 year old. Graduating. With a Deans List recognition.
Traveled and studied abroad. Leaned in towards us for advice, money, guidance, paperwork, signatures, reprimanding if the time called, saying no at times, and most always sharing "yes's" because she worked so hard so many times for those yes's.
Change.
Fear.
Learning.
Mostly, growing up.
G.R.O.W.I.N.G-U.P.
And so the mama bird backs up a little. She watches her make big girl decisions. Starting a new job this weekend. One that is filled with very long hours. One that is starting at the bottom.
One that will make her want to break, and yet I pray she doesn't.
One that will make her want to question it all.
And yet, I will just remind her.
She's got this.
Growing up.
And Change.
This is life, my sweet dear. And it's truly only YOU that will make YOUR life the best.
Don't look back little one.
You've been so so lucky to get to this point.
Traveling the world.
Living.
Loving.
And mostly, being educated.
YOUR EDUCATION CAN NEVER BE TAKEN AWAY FROM YOU-
That's most beautiful.
I love you little one.
And I'm only standing a little further back.
You'll be fine.
I promise.
I truly truly promise.
Believe in yourself.
Freshman Year In The Dorms.
We've worked so hard to provide in love and spirit. Always always encouraging you.
Hopefully showing and giving you the strength to take on this big world.
Kali and Mads saying goodbye- Freshman year
Someway, and some how....you just get through.
This life can be so twisted. So confusing. So gut wrenching hard. And yet, you lean into those that will carry you across.
Over rivers you'd never think to cross.
And you just do.
Hold tight to your tribe.
You are not alone.
I love you all.
Heavy week. Heavy weekend.
Keeping LOVE first.
This Mama Lisa
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